What is it?

new.

2007-12-22T06:46:58Z

new livejournal. new change, new new new.

i'm clicking the refresh button.

username: technoxlogic

love, love, love.

2007-04-16T01:28:29Z

i haven't updated in awhile.
nothing much has changed.
i still love all of you bitches though.

<3333

Is it worth it?

2006-10-10T04:20:46Z

is it worth it?

I just finished watching an episode of Nip/Tuck where the surgeons take on a patient who wants a complete facial reconstruction. Her husband has Alzheimer's and can't recogize his aging wife, but he still cligns on to a photograph of her in earlier years, mourning the fact she never comes to visit him. In reality, she hasn't missed a day with him, but he has absolutely no idea who she is now. The doctors take her on as a client and complete the surgery successfully. However, when she goes to visit her husband with her new face, his disease has progressed even further and still has no idea who she is and he even sports a new girlfriend. The doctor offers to take her away to dinner instead, but she states that she would rather stay with her husband and his girlfriend.

This situation had me thinking...is love worth it? Is it worth spending the rest of your days with someone who doesn't recognize you? Someone who needs to be taken care of constantly, and can't be left alone? My grandfather took care of my grandmother after she was diagnosed with Parkinson's about 20 years ago. When I was growing up, I didn't know anything else. I knew to leave Grandma alone, don't talk to her much, don't touch her, in fact...just ignore her. She was tiny, tinier than me, and my Grandpa carried her everywhere. At first they could visit our house, and more often our visits were to their house. It wasn't sad, depressing, or anything truly emotional to me or my sister, it was what we knew. We were essentially watching her die, and my Grandpa was there every step of the way. Neither of them left the house for 10 years, they didn't even get a nurse. She was carried to bed, and sleeping required numerous pills. Finally, one day she just kept sleeping. When she died, I didn't really feel anything. Was it really going to be different now that she was gone? I cried, of course, but I was young and never experienced death before. We didn't cry because she was gone now, we cried becuase she never really was there, death just confirmed it.

So is love really worth it all?

Yes.

Birthday...

2006-09-02T19:23:07Z

I am getting this camera for my birthday and I am SOOO excited. I love photography sooo much. It should come pretty soon...

IQ

2006-08-06T19:33:09Z

Dear Kathryn,

Thank you for your interest in the test at IQTest.com.

Your general IQ score is: 125

---

Oh snap! Not too shabby, eh?

IQ graph thingy

Ch-ch-ch-check it out.

Swimming...

2006-07-29T23:05:43Z

I took my cousin's swimming today, it was fun for them, but I didn't want to be there in the first place. I'm going to a show tonight, at 8 for Alex's band. I'm going with Kristin, who is the first person I'd go to a show with, 'cause she's awesome. I've been feeling really down and lonely lately, and friends haven't been helping. Dan, the gorgeous BRITISH guy I met at the pool cheered me up soooo much on Friday...but I don't know if I'll be able to see him again. Hopefully he will be there on Monday... I've told most of you about these guys, but Amy hasn't so here is the lowdown Ammers: Young, hot, british guys who run the local Eurosoccer camp go to the pool when I'm there for work. The one who is attracted to me is PERFECT. Hot, charismatic, hilarious, outspoken, flirtatious (with me). I caught him staring at me and I smiled and he smiled and we smiled at each other for more than an awkward moment... Anyways, I'd marry this guy except I don't know his last name. Sorry I'm not online BTW amyyyy it's 'cause I gotta get ready for the concert :p I'll talk to you after I get back, hopefully.
kaffykakes

OMG so tired.

2006-07-17T07:03:56Z

Good gawd I am tired. I am also repainting my room a pretty color. It looks fairly clean, except the piles of laundry on the floor. And on the bed.

There is no point to this post, but whatev.
gabba gabba hey,
kathrynnnn

Funny icon I found

2006-06-30T03:17:30Z

tee hee.

facial expression KILLS me.

chickenortuna @ 2006-06-28T00:02:00

2006-06-28T07:23:48Z

I answered these questions by putting my Ipod on shuffle and starting at the beginning and for each question, pressing "next". A surprising amount of them kind of made sense!

Will I get far in life?
"Diamonds are a Girl's Best Friend" - Marilyn Monroe {I'm guessing 'not'}

How do my friends see me?
"Wild Child" - Enya {It is a logical answer, but at this moment doesn't apply to me because all I do is work and watch movies and play Xbox}

Where will I get married?
"Mambo Italiano" - Rosemary Clooney {Sounds romantic!}

What is my best friend's theme song?
"Rose Tint My World" - Rocky Horror Picture Show

What is the story of my life?
"Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous" - Good Charlotte {WHAT THE FUCK? Why do I even have them on my Ipod? I hope it's true though!}

What's high school like?
"We Are the Champions" - Green Day at the Live 8 Benefit concert {I guess?}

How can I get ahead in life?
"Me & Bobby McGee" - Janis Joplin {Judging on the lyrics in this song, by sitting in a truck singing songs...I've got the truck part covered, and the singing songs part, although not well!}

What is the best thing about me?
'Ummm, Hellllooo?' - Dane Cook {Ummmm...not a lot?)

What is today going to be like?
"Hella Good" - No Doubt {LOLLERSKATES}

What is in store for this weekend?
"Sex and Candy" - Marcy Playground {I SWEAR TO ALLAH THIS IS WHAT CAME UP. Damn, my Ipod is pretty pyschic!}

What song describes my parents?
"I Wanna be Loved By You" -Marilyn Monroe {AWWWW}

To describe my grandparents?
"Nutcracker Suite, Op. 71a: Chinese Dance" -Peter Llyich Tchaikovsky {They aren't chinese, but they are NUTS!}

How is my life going?
"Goodbye to You" - Michelle Branch {Well this stinks}

What song will they play at my funeral?
"For Me and My Gal" - Judy Garland {I'M NOT A LESBIAN}

How does the world see me?
"Varvara Pavlovna" - Vanessa Paradis. {From what I understand, Varvara Pavlovna is a character in a Russian book Home of the Gentry about some dude who marries that chick who gets obsessed with Parisian frivolity and the dude finds out she has an affair, and he goes and falls in love with another chick only to find out original chick, Varvara Pavlovna, didn't REALLY have an affair, the newspapers lied.}

Will I have a happy life?
"Sweet Transvestite" - Rocky Horror Picture Show {Fuuuuuck.}

What do my friends really think of me?
"Flora's Secret" - Enya {They think I'm Mother Nature who makes lovers fall more deeply in love? PSHHHH I WISH...but not really}

Do people secretly lust after me?
Suerte (Whenever, Whereever) - Shakira {Am I supposed to feel complimented or insulted?}

How can I make myself happy?
"Get Down with the Sickness" - Richard Cheese {Ugh no please, this song was in a zombie movie}

What should I do with my life?
"Bridge over Troubled Water" - Fiona Apple {Jump?}

Will I ever have children?
"Once Upon a December" - Disney Songs {Hurrah?}

What will you name them?
"Super" - South Park Soundtrack {So either 'Super' or 'Big Gay Al'...hmmm....}

Who will you marry?
"Roxie" - Chicago Soundtrack {HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM NOT A LESBO}

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
"The Little Old Lady from Pasadena" - Jan & Dean {GAHHHHHHHHH}

Good Lord.

Let's talk about sex.

2006-06-26T06:30:07Z

Tonights topic is SEX, and why I think it should be all right for people to have SEX in public.

From the moment we are born, generally humans are taught that our genitals are PRIVATE and need to be covered AT ALL TIMES except under certain circumstances. Those particular situations are A) when bathing, B) when changing, and later in life C) when reproducing in the privacy of one's own home/apartment/box on the street. Mothers and fathers alike retaliate against logic and make up completely fucking stupid names such as "wee-wee" "pee-pee". They re-enforce the notion of keeping things 'under wrap' by called genitals "privates." Now, I am not blaming parents per ce, they are taught by their parents and society, who was taught by their parents, etc. ever since man (and I use this term loosely) first invented the loincloth. I thought a vagina was really called fagina thanks to watching Austin Powers before I even knew what a vagina was. That doesn't have too much relevence, but if I throw in something about myself, supposedly the audience can relate better...or some bullshit like that.
ANYWAYS.

If we could have sex in public, sex would not be veiwed so much as gross, bad, naughty, dirty, etc. and kids could grow up not being embarrassed by nude scenes when watching a movie with parents.

And we all know that a situation like that is worst than death.

xoxoxkathrynnnnn

P.S. I watched 'TransAmerica' tonight, and if you ever get a chance to watch that with your parents...don't.
P.P.S. KRISTIN AND I GET TO GO SEE LEWIS BLACK NEXT SATURDAY AT TAHOE! OMGSOEXCITED

some advice

2006-06-03T20:22:04Z

centipede + sneaker = squished two inch long bug carcass stuck on your wall.

I WANT I WANT

2006-05-30T06:06:14Z

If I could have anything in the world it would be THIS.

Oh my god, it's so beautiful. Imagine all the stuff I could do. I orgasmed just looking at it, and had a heart attack when I saw the price tag.

I am setting aside funds.

So far I have:

...........

33.12

In cash.

3,666.87 to go.

survey ish thing

2006-05-29T07:36:33Z

Comment with your name, and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.

2. I'll challenge you to try something.

3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.

4. I'll tell you something I like about you.

5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.

6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.

7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.

8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours.

Don't be a hypnotist if you can't do your job right.

2006-05-27T21:21:52Z

On Safe and Sober Grad Night, we had lots of fun until about 3. Katie and I were trying to sleep on these comfy benches but we couldn't so we go play Dance Dance Revolution (I know, WTF? I played like two rounds but it was annoying) At 4, this hypnotist show ended, but the guy did a shitty job of reviving these girls and so five or six of these were passing out, seizuring, colvulsing, screaming in agony...it was really freaky. We couldn't leave and were delayed for an hour after we were supposed to which sucked but I hope the girls are OK. I slept from 6 am until 2:00 pm and I'm still tired and sore in my back area. I hope you all are well, I'm excited to finally be graduated.

chickenortuna @ 2006-05-21T13:30:00

2006-05-21T20:50:37Z

I AM: Stressed and wearing a pirate shirt with rips in it and sheep slippers from James. Not exactly the cover of Vogue, but I'm comfy.

I SAID: I would never cry in front of people, and I still haven't.

I WANT: children and a successful career.

I WISH: I could open a store.

I HATE: hearing my voice and having people critisize my writing (not essays but for-fun writings). As much as I need corrections, every time someone says something negative about it, I feel I lost something.

I MISS: being able to not care about what people thought, and my dance classes.

I FEAR: my kids will grow up in a society of intolerance and I will never be a great writer.

I HEAR: not very well.

I WONDER: if I could ever be a writer.

I REGRET: letting go.

I AM NOT: as stupid as you think I am.

I DANCE: way too much.

I SING: better alone.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: as nice as you think I am.

I MADE: it to the end of school!

I WRITE: parallel to my emotions.

I CONFUSE: words when I talk and stutter sometimes and I make fun of it but when other people make fun of me when I'm having difficulty speaking I get embarrassed and it really pisses me off.

I NEED: to relax.

I SHOULD: exercise more.

I START: tons of projects, but.........

I FINISH: less than half of them.

I BELIEVE: in loving everyone until you meet them. Then you can hate them.

I KNOW: nothing is for sure except math.

I CAN: read upside down very well.

I CAN’T: touch my toes.

I SEE: poorly, but I just got out of glasses so I'm refusing to go back to the optomistrist.

I BLOG: when I am feeling emotional.

I READ: lots of books? and magazines.

I AM AROUSED BY: oh lord, lots of things.

IT PISSES ME OFF: when people lie about stupid things (white lies are fine, I really don't care), treat me or my friends like crap, when people disrespect other people's cultures in a non-funny way.

I FIND: I am happier when it rains.

I LIKE: solving puzzles.

I LOVE: music and people who play it, movies and people who appreciate them, and I love the children.

Lewis Black and Retards.

2006-05-16T00:15:18Z

Conversations with Melanie.

ohprettyinside: remember the lewis black thingy where he said he couldn't complete a thought because it was so cold
ohprettyinside: IT'S LIKE THAT
ohprettyinside: ONLY WITH THE HEAT
GreenPea154: lol
GreenPea154: yup
ohprettyinside: hmmm...i think i'll---FUCK IT'S HOT

ohprettyinside: i think you qualify for down syndrome
GreenPea154: lmao
GreenPea154: i have the mental capacity of a portuguese water poodle
ohprettyinside: at least the poodle can do tricks
GreenPea154: ouch
GreenPea154: my pride
ohprettyinside: Whoosh! Up goes my ego!

Melanie, you are slightly on the retarded side with a slice of cool and a hint of sexy.
I'd love to roll you in dough and bake YOU in a pie.

TOO MUCH CHORES!

2006-05-09T00:26:42Z

MY GOD!

ohprettyinside: sorry i have TWO thank you cards to do
GreenPea154: oh shit man
GreenPea154: thats crazy
ohprettyinside: i know
ohprettyinside: what the hell do they think i am?
ohprettyinside: a damn monkey?
ohprettyinside: THIS IS ANARCHY

Fo' sho.

PROM=AWESOME.

I didn't get laid :_(

Oh my goodness

2006-05-08T14:37:40Z

I'm addicted...to Rage Against the Machine. What? Whatever happened to the nice little white girl I used to be?

What?

2006-05-03T06:06:24Z

I hate to say this, but for the first time in my life, my family is poor. We've normally been pretty well off, but because of chemo, car troubles, and now our house has termites which will cost another few thousand we don't have...I'm scared. We used to buy like 200 dollars of groceries every weekend and our house had so much food. We now have food that other people have bought or cooked for us...no wonder christmas sucked ass this year. I sound really horrible, and maybe I am horrible...but I don't want to be poor. My mom has enough stress already and she won't accept any of my money (I have a few thousand in the bank that I've saved up) and my dad is working more than ever. Even my MOM is working and she is still going through chemo WTF. I don't want to lose the house, it's going to be my house, and maybe even my baby's house when I have 'em. Over this summer I need to work so much and get modeling jobs so that I can get the money back.

They spent thousands (over 6000) for me to model, and I haven't earned jackshit. I feel really guilty, like it's my fault we are going to be in debt. I wish I knew this before so I could apply for a scholarship.

At least we haven't actually gone into poverty, we are certainly getting there quickly. I'm trying to save gas so much because it's so expensive now. Blegh. Good thing it is almost summer.

Whatttt.

2006-05-01T01:14:13Z

Today I went shopping with my mom. We had a nice time and talked a whole lot, and I opened up. I've never noticed before, but people treat cancer patients way different. My mom wears hats that you can just tell she has cancer, and she gets treated (usually) nicer. The rest of today was nice, the weather was good and I helped Katie with her project which helped me, also. Our neighbors came over with lasagna and I am excited to eat it. I'm feeling a bit melancholy right now and a little upset, but I really don't care because I'm working on my projects and homework and getting stuff done, woo!

Application to date meee

2006-04-28T07:03:42Z

As stolen from Emily my love. I love filling these out haha. You don't have to be a boy, it's just for fun.

APPLICATION TO DATE KATHRYN TEH BEST.

1. Name:

2. Age:

3. Are you an American Citizen?:

()yes
()no

4. If not, where were you born?:

5. If not, do you speak English?:

() yes
() no (if no, please discontinue filling out this application.)
() some (which means you need to get out of this country and learn it, and also discontinue filling out this application). [note from kathryn: unless you are hot]

6. What is your ethnic background?:

7. What is your highest level of education completed?

() High School
() GED
() AS Degree
-area:
() BS Degree
-area:
() Higher than those two degrees
-area:
() Other
-Please specify (unless its because you didnt even finish High School, and if so please discontinue filling out this form) [not from kathryn: unless you're hot]

8. What is your sexual orientation?:

() Straight (and male)
() Homosexual (if so, please discontinue filling out this form)[unless you are a girl]
() Confused

9. Hair color/style (if applicable):

10. Eye color:

11. Height:
-also body type please:

12. Number of piercings:
-locations (if applicable):

13. Number of tattoos:
-locations (if applicable):

14. Penis size*:

15. Shoe size:

16. Number of STDs (if this number is greater than 1 please discontinue filling out this form):

17. Are you currently employed:

() yes
() no
-if so, where/what do you do:

18. Are you:

() Mostly dominant
() Mostly submissive
() Neither

19. Do you listen to hip hop?

() No
() Yes (if yes, please discontinue filling out this form)

20. Please list any special qualifications you believe you have for dating Kathryn:

21. Please list any special talents/things you are good at:

22. Please list any special talents/things you are good at that can generate income:

23. Do you agree to go through a complete background check and mental health evaluation before I date you, to make sure you arent completely psycho?

() Yes
() No

24. Do you agree to pay a $100 deposit up front, which will be returned only if you end the relationship with an honest explanation, and not with vague and meaningless phrases like “It’s not you, it’s me” or “I’m going through a rough time right now”?

() Yes
() No

25. Are you a jerk?

() Yes (if yes, please discontinue filling out this form)
() No

26. Please list any and all drugs used currently/within the last 5 years, including caffeine and nicotine:

27. Do you have a car:

() Yes
() No

-If yes, does it work?

() Yes
() No

28. Tell me briefly what you like best about me:

29. Do you like big butts and you cannot lie*:

() Yes
() No

30. Im kind of crazy. Are you willing to deal with this, and/or embrace this?

() Yes
() No, you have to get help first

31. Are you willing to include me in your life and not act like you dont want me to be around your family, friends, co-workers, etc?

() Yes of course
() No because I am a jerk
() Only some of them and I’m still a jerk for choosing this answer

32. Please list any strange sexual fetishes you have that might worry me:

33. Do you like William Shatner:

() Yes
() No
() HECK NO (bonus points for selecting this answer)

34. Have you ever found bacon in a place it did not belong?

() Yes
() No

35. Have you ever read a book, outside of school?

() Yes, I am at least half intelligent
() No, Im a moron

36. Do you realize my definition of “books” does not include picture books, pop-up books, books with cardboard pages, magazines, hunting manuals, or Cliff’s Notes?

() Yes
() No

37. Do you eat your vegetables:

() Yes
() No
() Some

38. Im incredibly hot. Is this ok?

() Yes
() No

39. Are you a hick?

() Yes
() No

40. What do you call sugary, carbonated, soft drinks?

() Soda
() Pop
() Coke
() Something else:

41. What do you think is your best feature:

42. Describe your last relationship and why it ended (if they died and it was your fault then please discontinue filling out this form):

43. How much time do you spend in a typical day thinking about ninjas?

() 0-1 hour
() 2-4 hours
() All the freaking day long
() Other:

44. Are you affectionate:

() Yes
() Yes, very
() Somewhat
() Slightly
() Not much at all
() No. ew.

45. Do you wear sweatpants:

() Yes
() No
() Sometimes
() Hi, Im Carl

46. Do you have hair in strange places that dont include your head, arms, legs, groin, and stomach:

() Yes
-If so, where:
() No

47. Do you have stomach hair:

() Yes
-If yes please include picture
() No

48. Do you have hair on your head (are you bald or not):

() Yes, I have hair
() Yes, I have beautiful hair
() No, I am completely bald
() Some, Im losing it though
() Some, Ive lost most of it
() Some, I have a terrible combover
-if this answer is marked, please include picture so we can laugh at you

49. Do you enjoy humor?

() Yes
() No

50. Please describe your current spiritual habits/life:

51. Do you fart?

() Yes
() No

52. Are you a hippie?

() Yes (if yes, please discontinue filling out this form)
() No

53. Do mind that I am kind of fat: [this is emily's question, not mine. but pretend i was a little bit chubbier]

() Yes (if yes, please discontinue filling out this form)
() No, dont really care
() More for me to love

54. Would you go with me to the aquarium?

() Yes
() No they are gay and so am I

55. Are you a jerk (just making sure)?

() Yes
() No

56. Will you give me back massages sometimes?

() Yes
() No

57. Do you speak any other languages?

() Yes
-Which please:
() No

58. I like baking cakes. If I made you one, would you eat it?

() Yes
() No

59. Are you emo?

() Yes
() No

60. Are you anything?

() Yes
- What please:
() No

61. Please list your top 5 favorite musical artists:

62. Do you like art at all?

() Yes
() No

63. Are you creative at all?

() Yes
() A little
() Not much
() No

64. Are you good at math?

() Yes, I am whiz
() I am alright at it
() Barely passed
() No
() No, and Im also a moron while we are on the subject

65. Please describe your oral hygiene:

66. Do you bathe at least once every other day?

() Yes, or more often
() Yeah probably
() If Im lucky
() No
() No, and I dont need to because I dont smell bad and you cant tell (or so I think)

67. Do you like japanese food?

() Yes I love it
() It is ok
() No
() No but I’ll sit with you when you eat it
() Never tried it
() Dont they eat twigs and berries and deers and crap?

68. Have you ever gotten in legal trouble other than like a traffic violation?

() Yes
- If yes please describe, and also if butt rape was involved: [pix please]
() No

69. What number am I thinking of?

() 10
() 3
() 69, dudes!
() 14 billion

70. Do you smoke?

() Yes
-How much:
() No

71. Are you willing to compromise on what we listen to in the car?

() Yes
() No, I am listening to whatever I want
() No, because we dont have to because you can choose the music dear

72. Are your parents scary?

() Yes
-Explain:
() No

73. Do you like waffles?

() Yes
() No

74. Would you agree to not cook hamburger meat when I am nearby?

() Yes but wtf
() No. Whatever, I do what I want!
() No, thats stupid and I dont care about your feelings or about the fact it makes you sick

75. Please describe your dressing habits:

76. Which of the following words, in your opinion, describes you best:

() Orange
() Habberdashery
() Pastel
() Caesar
() Hello

77. Are you willing to relocate to my area if you live more than 10 miles away?

() Yes
() No

78. Are you in love with me already?

() Yes
() No
() Unsure

34. If I accept your dating application, are you willing to spend time with me sometimes, or are you going to be a jerk?

() Spend time all the time
() Spend a good amount
() Every waking moment if you request this
() Spend as much time as I can
() A few minutes a week
() Im a jerk

25. Finally, give me the best reason you can come up with that I should accept your dating application.

A bit of philosophy.

2006-04-21T05:31:48Z

God and evil. I use God in the sense of a general God, a higher being, not strictly the Christian god.

--
We know that evil exists.
We are taught that God is omnipotent (all-powerful), omniscient (all-knowing), and wholly good.

If evil exists, God can be two of these, not all three.

He would have to create evil to be all-powerful, or he uses evil to 'test' mankind. However, if he is using evil to 'test' us, he cannot be wholly good to use evil in such a way. If God is not wholly good, most religious teachings are wrong.

If one insists that he is wholly good, fine. Let's try out the 'evil was not created by God' theory. Evil was not created by God, which means evil is more than God...higher up on the totem pole. So we need to pay homage to evil?

Ok, let's try another one. 'If he is to be omnipotent and wholly good, he must not know about some of the evil!' So there are things God does not know about? Doesn't that defeat the purpose of God?

Moreover, does God will good things, or are things good because God wills them?
(If you are atheist/agnostic, pretend you are theist for this one)

I'd like to hear some opinions. If you find holes in my logic, please let me know because I am very tired right now.

So this is what it has become...

2006-04-18T04:53:20Z

ohprettyinside: oh my god
ohprettyinside: my mom just handed me a packet on vaginal yeast infection and said "JUST IN CASE! there's nothing that you can't tell me. well, there are some things i probably never want to hear"
GreenPea154: LMAO!
ohprettyinside: my mom got one from her chemo so she gave me the packet that came with the medicine and she is making me read it BLEGH
GreenPea154: hehe
ohprettyinside: OH MY GO
ohprettyinside: *dies*
ohprettyinside: i shouldn't have flipped it over
ohprettyinside: it has a diagram like the tampon packs do only it's 5000x worse
ohprettyinside: but it says 'rectum' hahaa

Oy vey, I need an aspirin.

I'm pretty frustrated...

2006-04-11T07:41:54Z

The title says it all. I'm a naturally happy person, which helps me x 10000000 to calm down, but I have a full plate. I'm trying to balance two college class, my mom, my dog bleeding all over the house, I have to keep a close eye on whereever she is), high school shit, friends, chores, BLEGH. This is all I talk about in my livejournal is how frustrated I am. If I didn't know me, I'd think I was some weird emo kid. I swears, I'm not!
--
Anyways, today was a lazzzyyy day. I got my passport picture taken, got some moolah, and Kayte and I went out to Mel's Diner. We came back and burned some CDs and Jordan came over and helped. Then we all baked cookies and went into Kayte's room and all of us slept. My legs were sore (from jogging) and Kayte's arms were sore (from going to the shooting range), so we didn't do much except be lumps on a log. Jordan and I were sleeping in Kayte's bed while she was on the ground (nothing dirty) and then we all sat on the ground, then I slept on the bed, then we all slept on the groud using Jordan as a pillow and singing along to oldies songs. It was so fun in a tranquil and peaceful way.
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Tomorrow:
I have to write my essay on "La Femme Nikita," hang out with my mom, get rid of stuff in my room, and go to class at around 7. Hopefully I can hang out with the gang after that.
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So many people have offered help to us, and I am really, truly grateful. I know I never use your help such as Becky offering an ear to listen to my problems, but it's not you. I sincerely can't talk about my problems unless it's through writing, otherwise I just...can't speak. It's really weird, and makes sense to be, hopefully you all can somewhat understand.
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Mel comes Wednesday maybe!

Surveyyyy

2006-04-10T08:30:48Z

Ohhh naughty survey!

001] Smoked.
002] Consumed alcohol.
003] Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
004] Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
005] Made out with someone of the opposite sex.
006] Made out with someone of the same sex.
007] Had someone in your room of the opposite sex.
008] Watched porn.
009] Bought porn.
010] Done drugs.
total: 5

011] Taken pain killers.
012] Taken someone else's prescription medicine.
013] Lied to your parents.
014] Lied to a friend.
015] Snuck out of your house.
016] Done something illegal.
017] Cut yourself.
018] Hurt yourself on purpose.
019] Wished someone would die.
020] Seen someone die.
total: 8

021] Missed curfew.
022] Stayed out all night.
023] Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
024] Been to a therapist.
025] Been to rehab.
026] Dyed your hair.
027] Recieved a ticket.
028] Been in a wreck.
029] Been to a club.
030] Been to a bar.
total: 8

031] Been to a wild party.
032] Seen the Mardi Gras.
033] Had a spring break in Florida.
034] Sniffed something.
035] Wore black nail polish.
036] Wore arm bands.
038] Wore t-shirts with band names.
039] Listened to rap.
040] Own a 50 Cent CD.
total: 4

041] Dressed goth.
042] Dressed prep.
043] Dressed punk.
044] Dressed grunge.
045] Stole something.
046] Been too drunk to remember anything.
047] Blacked out.
048] Fainted.
049] Had a crush on your neighbor.
050] Had someone sneak into your room.
total: 5

051] Snuck into someone else's room.
052] Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
053] Been to a concert.
054] Dry humped someone.
055] Been called a slut.
056] Called someone a slut.
057] Installed speakers in your car.
058] Broke a mirror.
059] Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house.
060] Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
total: 8

061] Considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
062] Seen an R rated movie in theaters.
063] Cruised the mall.
064] Skipped school.
065] Had an eating disorder.
066] Had an injury.
067] Gone to court.
068] Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
069] Caught something on fire.
070] Lied about your age.
total: 7

071] Owned an apartment.
072] Cheated on your boyfriend / girlfriend.
073] Cheated with someone.
074] Got in trouble with the police.
075] Talked to a stranger.
076] Hugged a stranger.
077] Kissed a stranger.
078] Rode in the car with a stranger.
079] Been sexually harrassed.
080] Been verbally harassed.
total: 6

081] Met face to face with someone you met online.
082] Stayed online for 12 hours straight.
083] Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight.
084] Watched TV for 12 hours straight.
085] Been to a fair.
086] Been called a bad influence.
087] Cursed.
088] Prank called someone.
089] Laid in bed with someone of the opposite sex.
090] Cheated on a test.
total: 9

091] Cheated on homework.
092] Held hands with someone of the opposite sex.
093] Been pushed into a pool.
094] Played pool.
095] Watched 5 hours of MTV straight.
096] Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you.
097] Had a crush on someone younger than you.
098] Wear eyeliner.
099] Skinny dipped.
100] Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt.
total: 8

I got like 68...it's probably too high but it's 1:33 in the morning and i'm fucking tired. I'm not TOO bad of a kid, I guess!